Love and Hope (the Ultimate Rebellion)

A poem I wrote about the same time as the shootings at the Christchurch Mosques were taking place, unbeknownst by me, of course. They happened down South, whereas I am more Northern, but the tragedy has greatly affected me as it has all New Zealand and all the world.My poem was dwelling on my own battles with anxiety and how I have overcome them, in a way, but I feel it is fitting for this current situation we find ourselves in now, as well.Love and Hope (the Ultimate Rebellion)I have filled my life with meaning,I have no void, no Nothing anymore,because I have created Something.Family, art, and friendship...I have seen the abyss, I've touched the depths,I swept that floor clean to see what wasbeneath but all I felt was a cold hardfirmament beneath my feet.I looked up, looked down, I took it all ineverything around...for some reason, I smile nowthinking of that and howin the pits of hopelessness, I founda reason to exist,an excuse for being, toward death, surethere is no escaping, I can already hearthat bell ringbut I will not dread what I can't comprehendso for Now, the Ultimate Rebellion.