Winter's Gentleman
In a way, I was forever winter’s child, born from snow in the Midwest
I was bottled near a silver city, where the lights were bright for a moment
As my mother soon brought us to the salty desert near the sea
The West coast then was dipped in so many golden memories
I had forgotten that we ran from a monster far younger than my mom
There was a crumbling peace then, with new roommates in our lives
A short decade went by without a man present to teach me
My mom saw this and we mobilized a plan; my own naivety blissfully center stage
So we packed our bags, driving by giant yarn balls and dinosaurs
To the land of my dad
Once more we stayed for many winters, many members of humanity with testicles bigger than their brains, many dire roommates who always found a way to stay
Dad put his hands where no true man should—often, always; we ran as far as we could
My mom told me to be a gentleman, whatever that means, I’d think
A combatant, a protector, or perhaps a cunning prince sent off to war
The longest decade went by and we mobilized a plan, to the Southlands
We followed our roommates to their family’s resting place
Their family packed their bags not long after; we were stuck in a melting heat wave
Our provider gave up on life; I realized that life wasn’t life unless I was away
Boozing and crooning and brooding, while working at the bar, all through the nights
I met an angel, she flew away; time stopped until it didn’t, I’d marry her one day
Boozing and crooning and brooding all through each day
The monster died, I heard; it haunted me for a while
I was promised a new life in a city where they keep secrets, if only I knew
Born in Missouri—Swam in California—Damaged in Illinois—Drank in South Texas—Froze in Las Vegas
Tried college, wanted to create
Couldn’t afford San Francisco, left with my tail between my legs
Drank some more, that’s all I knew how to do
Bought a camera, wrote a book, made some videos, submitted to publishers
I’ll make it in maybe ten years, or, well, that’s my current attitude
My angel floated back to me, both of us with broken wings
Perhaps maybe I could be the gentleman that my mother still needs
To this day, we’ll see
Having children truly changes perspective, don’t let anyone say different
If someone has kids and says it don’t, get the hell away from them
My mom had it rough since her birth up until now
I had it rough, but it was different, we can’t compare suffering
For we’d all be covered in the darkest of clouds
My son won’t go through these things, I tell myself
Family history won’t be repeated, but hell, my wife has her own things she scared of as well
In a way, my son became winter’s child, born in North Texas
He was bottled within the concrete meadow, where grass rarely grew
As my wife and I soon brought him somewhere someplace as we want better for him always
I am so proud
He will be a gentleman, whatever that means—he’ll learn as we’ve defined it…
Don’t I know it, he’ll rebel
I raised hell, but I came home and hoped to save it
What are preposterous dream
I shiver in the summer and grow warm when it’s cold
This state is rough, but it’s just like the others
They all think they’re the center of the universe, but I guess I do, too
Winter isn’t aware of me; winter will go on far beyond my time
I hope I make history heavier than what part I’ve had that’s came before
My son might actually outrun me, becoming the president or more
These days I pray, although I’m unsure if it’s worth it
All over the country, it’s become quite morbid
The snow rarely comes here, although when it does I don’t feel a thing
It’s the heat index of my pride and reminiscing that pushes me from sane
The monster still lingers, but his river has been enclosed
There is a peace and it, too, lingers
The laughter of my family makes me feel glee
It’s almost autumn, which is far more beautiful than it has a right to be
This makes it soon winter, where I will have aged onced more
My son will be one and I will be thirty
The wild boy meets the supposed gentleman—what else is life for but a lesson in distance?
In a way, we are all winter’s child—what a disconcerting parent
It comes and goes
It comes and it just goes
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